Where do you go when life as you know it is turned completely upside down? It happened to me. The life I knew and loved vanished on August 7, 2013 when my college sweetheart and husband of 33 years chose to end his life. There are not words to describe my shock and devastation. Though I was surrounded with wonderful, loving people, none of them could restore the half of me that died that day. This was a God-sized task! This is my journey through shock, grief, mourning and healing. It is the very personal and profound journey I took to ultimately discover that no matter how deep your pain…God is always there and He is enough. If you are grieving, God Is Enough will give you hope. I understand what you are going through, and I am here to share my message of hope, healing and faith.
M.E. Louis is a native of North Carolina. She grew up in Chapel Hill where she attended the University of North Carolina and met the love of her life, Tate, who became a pastor. After 33 years of marriage, Tate took his life on August 7, 2013. God is Enough is her story of hope, healing and faith.
For the first time in my life I fully understood how someone could be in a crowd of people and still feel lonely.One of the hardest parts of trusting God has been reconciling the fact that God had the power to stop Bob from committing suicide, but He chose not to do so. Hebrews 5:7 -8 has helped me as I wrestle with this. In these verses I can see the fully human, fully God facing the cross and crying out to the Father, who has the power to make another way, but chooses not to do so. I see Jesus submit to God's plan that included suffering and death. Jesus wrestled with God's plan to redeem the world through His death on the cross. It helps because, I, too, have struggled with God's plan for my life.
God is Enough
I have learned many things the past 5 years. I have chartered many unknown waters. I have gone from wishing and praying that God would end my life to waiting with anticipation where God wants me to go from here. Only the work of God in my life could accomplish such a dramatic shift. When God says over and over again in His Word that He will take care of widows He means it. I have seen God’s activity and felt His presence in my life like I’ve never seen before. I want Him to get the glory for everything that comes from this tragedy.