Where do you go when life as you know it is turned completely upside down? It happened to me. The life I knew and loved vanished on August 7, 2013 when my college sweetheart and husband of 33 years chose to end his life. There are not words to describe my shock and devastation. Though I was surrounded with wonderful, loving people, none of them could restore the half of me that died that day. This was a God-sized task! This is my journey through shock, grief, mourning and healing. It is the very personal and profound journey I took to ultimately discover that no matter how deep your pain…God is always there and He is enough. If you are grieving, God Is Enough will give you hope. I understand what you are going through, and I am here to share my message of hope, healing and faith.
M.E. Louis is a native of North Carolina. She grew up in Chapel Hill where she attended the University of North Carolina and met the love of her life, Tate, who became a pastor. After 33 years of marriage, Tate took his life on August 7, 2013. God is Enough is her story of hope, healing and faith.
Over a two and one half month period we had several difficult conversations. One of them was initiated by my husband while we were relaxing on our screened porch. He began, "Have you ever been really depressed and thought of suicide?" I responded,"Yes" and described the situation that had brought about my depression. My plan was to drive my car into a lake on my way home from work. Bob asked, "What kept you from doing it?" "You did. I knew what it would do in you." His response, "Then you know how I am feeling." I shook my head yes and then added,"Do you have a plan?
"No I am too chicken to do something like that. Plus, if I committed suicide, you would not receive the money from the life insurance policy." I remember thinking to myself, "I hate that we are even having this conversation but at least he has given two reasons for not taking his life."
God is Enough
As a high school student, I was told that Jesus died on the cross for me and that if I had been the only person on the earth, Jesus still would have gone to the cross… Wow! What AMAZING LOVE! That is when I decided to become a follower of Jesus. Because of His death on the cross, my destiny is sure. When I close my eyes on this earth, I will open them in Heaven...just as my husband did.