I would rather be at sea during a storm. Seeing a storm from within it rather than being caught on land. At sea, I feel safer. I can find the eye of the storm and remain there watching - observing the storm around me. On land, I have to go through the storm on both sides of the eye. People think I am crazy when I talk about being at sea during a storm and how it excites and energizes me. It was a wonderful adventure.
If only I can have that kind of courage being me and standing up for myself in living my whole life. What is it about the sea and storms that make me feel strong and brave enough to withstand them? I can’t seem to handle the storms within me or within my life as well as I can handle being caught in a hurricane! I guess I must be a little crazy. At the very least it makes me different from most people I know. I definitely see life and have a very different view of the world than most people I think.
Sometimes something that hurts us deeply even destroys a part of ourselves is actually a blessing in disguise. Often we resist it rather than being open to the blessings. I know how much I resisted at first. Now I have opened to the blessings – allowed myself to step into the blessing and leave the hurt and pain behind. Walking through them, taking those leaps of faith has shown me that I have courage and faith in something. I don’t always need faith in myself just faith in the process of life and I will find a way through. It may not look pretty and it may be really ugly and scary at times but the storm will always move on and the sea will be calm again. The ocean is what draws me and gives me breath, gives me life. As long as I am at the ocean anywhere in the world I will be alive.
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