Right now, I just desire a man's attention. It hadn't bothered me the first few years after my divorce. There once was someone, a long time ago. We were good together. One problem—he was too young for me. I never even thought to look him up. Oh well, he's probably married by now.
Maybe I could just find someone to have sex with? But I'm not buying sex. I can have sex with a man without emotions getting in the way … I think. I mean, men do that all the time, right? I just want a companion to show me attention and go to social events with me. Maybe even a movie or dinner. That would be nice … for now.
I walk back into my office and flop in the chair, tapping my fingers along the desk. It's time to check out my Business Companion, Mr. Cole Bradley. Over the past week, I've been postponing my need to see his picture. I mean, this is nothing more than an arrangement for business purposes. It shouldn't matter how he looks. At least, that's what I keep telling myself.
I scroll down the page, swiftly passing by his picture. I'm such a wimp sometimes. I reach Cole's bio. Well, Mr. Cole Bradley, let's look at your attributes.
Hair: Copper brown
I bet that color brings out his green eyes. Stop it, Ren.
I like my men tall.
Weight: 225 lbs.
All muscle, I bet.
Now it's time to see Cole Bradley's face. I scroll back up near the top of the page. Closing my eyes, I take a deep breath. Open your eyes, Renee. I open them and see a familiar face and jump back, causing my chair to roll a few inches away from the desk. Breathe, breathe, I tell myself. I use my feet to scoot back to the desk. Not trusting my bare eyes, I put on my reading glasses. There he is. As I stare at his handsome picture on the computer screen, a torrent of emotions runs through my body. The main one being regret.
VIP can't know about this … about us. Heck, maybe they already do. Oh God. What would they think of me? And why hasn't he acknowledged knowing me? Well, one thing’s for sure, I want to know why he's calling himself Cole Bradley.
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