The first time I did meth I felt euphoric and it felt good. I felt like there wasn't anything that I could not do. I could clean the house, take care of the baby, everything. At the time meth was prevalent, so we could get it anywhere. Labs were everywhere and every other neighbor had it.
Why is meth so prevalent
in East County?
The reason is that East County is so vast, so farmy. When you cook meth it smells like ether. At the time the Klan regulated a lot of it, now it is the Mexican cartels. But then, you could go anywhere. I could go to the liquor store and ask if you have any meth. They would say, “Yeah, I'll be right back.” I continued to use until 1990 when I got pregnant with my son. Sad to say, I used meth with my son. I would lie to my husband and tell him that I wasn't, but I needed the drug and could not stop, even though I was pregnant. When you use meth, you become very dehydrated and you don't eat because it becomes physically hard to eat. But, I did what I had to do and finally stopped a week before his birth. By God's watchful eyes, my son was born healthy and with no drugs in his system. After my son was born, I got high. Damn, how did you do dope in the hospital? When you have an addiction, you will get the drugs. I kept telling myself that I could not live without it.
My first jail stint was in 95 due to an assault on a drug dealer. What happened was I was high, I mean I was high everyday and she had sold me some meth, but I was not getting high. It was bunk and there are ways to tell if it is, like if it doesn't burn when you snort it. For me I could tell if it is real because my ears would start hurting and I would get this overwhelming urge to use the restroom, and none of this was happening. I had just bought a teener from her, which back then was about $80 and she burned me. I was pissed beyond belief. Not only did I have a temper, but with the meth I was about three times as worse. I confronted her about it and she said, “Oh well,” so I beat her up, broker her nose. She got a lot of rage of my childhood that day and I can say that she did not deserve that. After I beat her up, she called the police and by the time they came, I was in full rage so they tazed me. I could not stop. I was charged with first degree assault and battery and I got six months in the county jail, which was not an awakening.
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