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A childhood spent in Hollywood, a father who was beloved by the entertainment elite and all the shiny things money can buy; Carol Sorkin Hunter’s life should have been a fairy tale. Shadows lurked behind; a near fatal electrocution at eight years old, her mother’s Mafia brothers, and a sinister sexual experience triggered a personal journey. Carol’s life spun out of control, she tried to slow it down with a sugar addiction. Spanning from World War Two to the attack on the Twin Towers, Hunter experienced two failed marriages, and at a time when it wasn’t common practice to divorce, she was granted a new trial after secretly tape recording her father-in-law admitting his son was a bigamist. The divorce settlement allowed her to live and paint in Rome, she returned home to Los Angeles, married again and gave birth to twin daughters. Her second marriage- to a bi-polar husband- became volatile and she once again divorced. As her confidence plummeted, her hopelessness grew. Poverty threatened her very existence. From this low point in her life, Carol heard words that triggered her journey toward self-worth, the fulfillment of her talents, and by Divine Accident, her soul mate.

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A Divine Accident

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A childhood spent in Hollywood, a father who was beloved by the entertainment elite and all the shiny things money can buy; Carol Sorkin Hunter’s life should have been a fairy tale. Shadows lurked behind; a near fatal electrocution at eight years old, her mother’s Mafia brothers, and a sinister sexual experience triggered a personal journey. Carol’s life spun out of control, she tried to slow it down with a sugar addiction. Spanning from World War Two to the attack on the Twin Towers, Hunter experienced two failed marriages, and at a time when it wasn’t common practice to divorce, she was granted a new trial after secretly tape recording her father-in-law admitting his son was a bigamist. The divorce settlement allowed her to live and paint in Rome, she returned home to Los Angeles, married again and gave birth to twin daughters. Her second marriage- to a bi-polar husband- became volatile and she once again divorced. As her confidence plummeted, her hopelessness grew. Poverty threatened her very existence. From this low point in her life, Carol heard words that triggered her journey toward self-worth, the fulfillment of her talents, and by Divine Accident, her soul mate.

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Being clairvoyant comes with responsibility

To me, there are no strangers. I am quite comfortable meeting people and telling them about their dreams and defeats. People have broken down in tears or laughter, but there is a very fine line that I will not cross. The decisions that one has to make will be done by them. I will not make important life decisions , I will not frighten or manipulate individuals. That is not my purpose.

God heard my prayers

I don't ever question that God hears and answers our prayers. They are not always the way we imagine and want them to be answered. Accept it or not I believe that prayers are answered for our highest good. I further believe that we are here to learn and to teach and when the lessons are completed we move on...

Panic disorder was in my daughter's DNA

It was living a nightmare seeing my life's decisions manifest in my children's lives. Jenny suffered for years and I feel for any parent having to deal with the situation. Panic disorder is debilitating and life altering. Jenny taught me through her courage and fortitude to forge ahead and never give up!

My Divine Accident

As I reflect back to the event that was pivotal to my life, it remains a beautiful demonstration of faith and fortitude. Stepping on the bag that held this validation of truth was triumphant . Yes, I was on the path and it felt glorious. I pray miraculous demonstrations for you .

What my Mafia Uncles taught me!!!

I learned the lessons from my uncles very well. "Secrecy counted and Connections worked. That is why I deliberately withheld any information about being locked in a room and forced to watch a bizarre sex act . With their friends like, Bugsy Siegel, Mickey Cohen I swore myself to secrecy. For 4 years I didn't tell a soul.

The monster locked the door ...

It is so relevant today and I relate to exactly the same emotions as Dr. Ford. I kept silent for 4 years. I did not want to share for one reason , I had Mafia uncles and one knows he could have been taken out, very easily. That would bring more guilt and fear. I kept my secret going for years. I remember the event distinctly although it has been over sixty years.

Ugly sexual encounters are not forgotten

It is quite pertinent today, with the "he said, she said". I will share my thoughts and opinion. I don't care if it was 35 years ago or 67 years ago. I personally remember with great clarity when I was only 18 and was traumatized. I did not talk to anyone about it for 4 years. Anyone coming forth with a secret like this has been living with it for over 35 years. I understand so well the conflict.

Never give in !!

Everyday we are faced with challenges that can be mind changing. We have choices to make , hold on tight or give in. It can take great stamina , courage and fortitude to remain calm, stable and successful. I find that it much easier to grin and bear a situation rather than giving in or giving up. These are often lessons that are put in our path to educate and guide us. May Divine guidance keep us protected .

One awful man doesn't mean people are bad...

After being locked in a room and forced to watch two people having sex, I know that people are basically kind and good. Horrific events caused by one evil human doesn't mean most men will act this way. How we react is so important. I had to learn not to overreact but, to take logical action. Look around today and see all the wonderful first responders helping out with "Hurricane Florence" People are basically good.

When life gives you lemons , I made Lemonade ...

It is difficult today to remember my life without decent transportation. I had legs and I had a bike. My mode of transportation with the twins was their red wagon. We made it work with laughter, courage, strength and faith.. At the time faith was my fuel and my love of God was unshakeable

Principles to live by...

Through a lot of pain and suffering I personally found a better way to live and think. I have given a brief description on the following pages. All I can share is that it worked and it is still working. I find being grateful and appreciative of our short time on this planet that we should honor and respect it as well as our bodies.

I had to change my life

I think back to the days when I was hurting and struggling to find a better life. It had to get better, raising twin daughters , balancing work, cleaning , shopping and compulsive eating. On top of all this I had a weight problem. It took unshakeable faith to turn my life around.

Addiction was controlling my life.

I was able "just for today" to celebrate over 40 years of no real sugar in my life. I did it 1440 minutes a day. I share my downfalls and triumphs in my memoir. It worked for me and I pray in the event of any addiction that it will work for you. It requires faith, courage and prayer. In our own family within the past year we have lost 2 young nephews to addictions.

Guilt=Growing Unrest Internally Living Turmoil

I am sharing the Acronyms that came from the Universe . Because there is such power in the word and how it is spoken, creates a vibration. I would often wonder why saying certain words brought about great anger or love. Here are some of the examples.

Life seems to test our faith

In times of stress it is easy to forget that we are supported, surrounded and immersed in an energy that loves and sustains us. Remaining calm and centered is not always easy when your life is being bombarded from all sides, under those circumstances I pray and it always works out in Divine Right Action...

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My acronyms

HERO, today with the death of Senator John McCain we are honoring a real hero. I felt the words of a hero were: Heartfelt Efforts Reacting Outstandingly. It seem appropriate in describing a real hero. Someone who reacted in an outstanding way regardless of the danger. God Bless you John McCain. !!!

My amazing demonstrations

Through the years I have been healed over and over again. I am no different than you, but I have unshakable faith that sustains and maintains me. I share my miracles throughout my memoir to provide a roadmap to success. May you embody the marvelous healing energy available to us.

Homage to Aretha

I know that it is like to lose a great talent. We only notice when the music stops, but in this case...it will continue on and on. Aretha was born gifted and shared her talent abundantly. She was a wonderful pianist and her voice was perfection. My father played the saxophone beyond compare, he was the Maestro, so in homage to Aretha and all the magical musicians , Thank You ...Encore, Encore !!!

I couldn't allow food to comfort me...

I was supposed to be a grown up woman that did not have to resort to food to find comfort. I had found out painfully that it did not work for me. I wasn't an alcoholic , gambler or junkie I was addicted to food. But, I found a better way to cope and that was through prayer and how I turned my life around.

Believe, Achieve and Receive

I do not care what you are praying for, but I believe there are some ways to demonstrate specifically , precise and perfectly. Ask yourself these three questions. Is it for good?. Will it hurt someone and are you taking something that doesn't belong to you?

The energy in the Universe is non-judgemental

I have come to realize that the Universe is non-judgmental , perfect and exquisitely effective. Therefore, we know that when we pray , our prayers shall be answered regardless of race, color or creed. I firmly believe this as I have experienced miraculous results.

We are responsible for our own decisons

We try to plan out our lives and it doesn't always come out the way we planned it. You have to be prepared and I am very impulsive ; therefore many of my own personal decisions were unwise. The most important lesson I learned was to make a blueprint and be very specific, then let the wonderful energy in the Universe make it manifest.

Abuse is unacceptable in a marriage

I was still trying to understand a husband who says, "he loves you and them explodes with anger the next minute. I thought maybe that is what husbands do. As a wife I was supposed to accept and be subservient I felt like a fool and embarrassed , this was my second failed marriage and I was trapped.

I cannot ever, ever give in or give up !

Even today, I go through challenges as I am sure you do also. But, my faith remains unshakeable even under the most major trials. As long as we are here on this planet, continue to face your battles with courage, resolve and bravery. The Universe is loving, powerful and in command . Do not ever give up.!!!

My 12 hour engagement

Ian proposed to me at the "London Chop House" in Detroit , Michigan. I was ecstatic, thrilled beyond my dreams. This was October and we planned to marry around Christmas. I flew back to California and Ian left for Washington. And, then I did not hear from him for days. Never calling to see how I was doing. I could not believe our joy lasted for only twelve hours.

I hid my torn clothes for proof.

No one might believe me, that I was emotionally and physically abused. At the time there were no "Haven" refuges for women to go to. I did my best to keep the girls and I safe. As proof that Charles had another side I saved the torn clothes and I wouldn't patch the wall when he threw things at me.

Pay attention to your words

Words have so much power. There is a vibration that takes place. There is only one letter difference between can and can't. I used to live in a worried state ,money for rent, food, clothing, medical et al. On this path, have learned about faith , unconditional love and kindness. Send out peaceful loving vibrations.

I had to keep going and not turn around

My mind and body had taken enough abuse, this time I was taking control. For the first time in my life, I was embarking on a new and exciting path. My faith in God was unshakable and I began to love myself !!!

The day my life had changed !!!

I couldn't continue on my path of destruction . It was killing me . I had to find the strength , courage and desire to change. Knowing my past failures and yes, triumphs I was about to embark on a new journey...a planned path for success. I could not question it, I had to make it happen. I devised a plan , one that I still follow today.

I was fooled ...

After my miserable marriage to Alan, I slowly allowed myself to find love, companionship and trust. I thought my judgment had improved, how wrong I was! Because I was impulsive and a sucker for compassion I once again tried to make it work.

Electrocuted at eight made me more clairvoyant

I can still remember the electricity going through my whole body. It must have opened up some channels in my brain, because I have become quite clairvoyant . Science has proven some of this be valid. And I can certainly vouch for it..."There are no strangers"!!!

My nightmare second marriage .

Years ago, Bi-polar was not a word one heard much about. I was not able to figure out the strange behavior that would control Charles. I never knew what he might throw at me , or attack me with. Then .a little while later he could not do enough for me. It was a living nightmare.

A Common Thread

There seems to be a common thread that runs through children that have been molested and obesity. We are humiliated and shamed into a life of protection from the monsters. For many, like myself it became mandatory to fill myself up with food as a barrier from pain. .

Never, give up !!!

After two failed marriages I was willing to try again . Yes, I still believed in magic, music and miracles. At 45 years old I found the love of my life. I know that there is a Divine Pattern and when we follow it, it demonstrates to the level of our belief.

My lessons for Healing

I use this method of healing to stay focused. It is so helpful that I lovingly share it. It is at the end of my memoir and I thought it was appropriate to include. I live by this. I know it works and makes you and others feel great about themselves.

Give the poor man a chance!

I did not often listen to my Mother, but this time I did. "Carol, give the poor man a chance.." Ian, had hurt me and I had been ripped apart and psychologically dismantled by the men in my life. But, I was armed with my restored self-respect. This time I listened and this is what happened.

If only our life together had been as beautiful as

It truly was a wedding that was fit for a princess. but I wasn't a princess and Alan wasn't a prince. From the moment I said , "I do" I was done. I gave Alan permission to control my life. And he did ,. from what to wear to how much salt I was using on my food. But, boy oh boy it was a magnificent wedding !!!

What a miracle I experienced

Surviving an electrocution at eight years old, was a miracle. Having a mass and hemorrhaging at thirty-four years old and having it dissolve was so magnificent that I never forget the dynamic healing power in the Universe . A Divine Accident, is my story and I lovingly share it.

The Hollywood Maestro

It was about one-hundred years ago when my father boarded the London Tube and went to work. He was so young, yet so talented. He started at the" Savoy Hotel" in London and ended up at the "Beverly Hills Hotel" in California . It is an amazing act to follow. My early life was story-book magic.

I was so traumatized , I allowed myself to be cont

I had no idea I was being controlled by Alan. My self-esteem had been crushed by my past. I welcomed the attention and consideration that Alan showed me and slowly he became my Svengali influencing every thing I did. My only voice was in my paintings.

How could the man who loved me be twisting and bru

It is difficult to try to figure out someone else's bizarre behavior when visibly they appear to be normal. Such was my marriage to Charles. He became a cruel and wicked man one moment and kind and loving the next. I was terrified to stay with him .

Let the healing begin ...

The moment you change your thinking to healing from hurting the energy begins to respond. It is as effortless as you make it. Some days were unbearable and other days were even worse, but I never gave up or even allowed myself the thought of giving up. All I can share is that it works, perfectly, silently and brilliantly.

My Prayer Acronym

P=purposely -R=receiving -A=answers -Y=you-E=earnestly - R=request. Please read the following acronyms that were sent to me in prayer !!!

The only time I stopped eating !

When my father died suddenly, I stopped eating for three days. I didn't think that his death would affect me so. At times like this the house is filled with food, friends and family. For someone addicted to sweets, it was so powerful to find NO comfort in food. For me it was a useless diversion. I craved solitude .

I used the Law of Attraction and it worked!

Yes, the Law of Attraction is real, powerful and useful. I was able to demonstrate a new life, a wonderful husband and found it works finding the perfect home. I have illuminated various demonstration in the following chapters. It is a powerful tool and may you have great success !

I was going to New York on 9/11

My foolishness caused me to re-tear my rotator cuff. I did not want to go through the long arduous healing again in a sling. It was months before I could use my arm, so when I discovered a doctor in New York, who had a different healing technique I booked an appointment on September 11th , the rest is History.

I became a survivor, not a victim

At long last I found the courage I needed to survive. When I had to go to court , I was able to reverse the court's decision and was rewarded handsomely . In this Chapter I was starting to create a new path. I was still fragile , but strengthening my backbone.

I wanted to do myself in.

Months after my horrible experience with my blind date, I did not want to live. I started to plan my extinction ,but gratefully my curiosity took precedence . I wanted justification and I was willing to fight for it.

A wagon and a bike were my only means of transport

Today, I look in the garage and see my beautiful black Jaguar car and can think back to the time when I had no transportation It seems unbelievable to me that I was raising twin daughters and living without real transportation. I literally had to put my feet on a bike and petal to work. Through faith and prayer , my life slowly turned around.

Planning a binge

It takes planning to prepare to binge. I would have to make sure that I was alone. I would drive to the store to buy my favorite items. Peanuts, potato chips, ice cream , cookies and on and on. I would like to sit and read or watch a special show with all my props around me. Yes, it took planning and thank God I do not make those plans anymore. I explain in the book how I was able to succeed..

I learned early that secrecy worked and connection

In my early years the only thing I understood was: "don't ask questions"! No one would answer them . Today, with the help of Google and Facebook you can find out just about anything. But, even today connections count. It still amazes me how little my uncles knew ,but more important was, "Who they knew"

Sweets numbed the pain

I look in the mirror today and think back to the awful days that the mirror was my demon. We give so much power to the image in the mirror. Sweets was my Novocain. They soothed, comforted and sustained me through ugly traumatic times.

I believed in a power I couldn't see or touch !

I have learned to trust this power unconditionally. All I know is that it works. There have been so many miracles and I am no different than you. In this particular chapter I arrived at one of my miracles.

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How amazing the mind and body are to remain resilient in times of stress and fear. I share with you finding my own inner strength and courage for whatever has manifested in my life...The power is there for you!

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A diamond-back snake real has an angular head.

Here I was all by myself and I was confronted with a diamond back snake guarding the front door. It was a dilemma I didn't want nor train for. I was doing my friend ,"Casey Cagney Thomas "a favor staying with her while her famous father Jimmy and her husband Jack were away on business.

Finally after two failed marriages , found true l

With all this wonderful love in the air. I too, found my perfect soul mate. It is so easy to give up and accept what life has dealt you...but I so wanted a good marriage, a kind and considerate husband and father to our girls. I share my story for you, how my life changed after so much trauma.

I kept silent for years

No one knew what I had been through, I was so ashamed to talk about it. I have seen so many overweight people try to stuff the sexual incidents away. But, it doesn't work. Until you face and confront the issue , take back your pride and courage , the inner rage goes on unattended.

I release you

With so much love in the air it is hard to imagine having to let go of someone you loved so much. I had to release Ian in order to survive. Our love story was the culmination of a man's great indecision , if he couldn't make up his mind I had to do it.

Healing panic attacks

Through the years , I watched my daughter and many other people suffer from panic attacks. Since then we have learned some valuable lessons. One is to desensitize a fear. I know one woman who had to ride an elevator fifty times up and down and it worked. She was able to ride an elevator without panicking .

Early signs of panic disorder

I believe that Jenny's panic disorder started early on with her out of control father Charles. She told me that "she didn't want to go to school for fear that he would hurt me when I was alone."

How to pray for demonstrations

I cannot emphasize enough the power in the words. I believe that the words have vibrations and it changes from can and can't from , won't to want . When I pray I fully expect a demonstration. My faith is unshakable !!!

It was her, the girl who helped lock me in the roo

I froze when I saw the Can-Can dancers. It was my secret, the one I locked up inside me for four years. And, there she was in her Can-Can outfit dancing around. She had no idea what seeing her did to me again. The perpetrators never do !!

I had to hide the fact of being Jewish

My father was among the elite in Hollywood Society. It was a time when being Jewish had a stigma to it. After the war many holocaust victims slowly arrived in California, their arms marked with numbers.

I personally abused my body

I was the only one responsible for picking up a fork , a drink or a pill. Only me, I could go on blaming others and I never would have learned how to heal . I willingly share with you what steps I took to heal.

I didn't care how large I got

I began not to care how I looked , it became my camouflage to keep away admirers. When the repairman came to fix the gas leak ...

Bad sexual encounters cause bad habits

I have found that the majority of people that overeat had unwanted sexual abuse. We eat to make ourselves so unattractive that no one wants to be around or with us.

All I had was an unshakable faith

I had only my firm belief in a power greater than I . I could not see or touch it, but I felt it. Never before was I so assured in a perfect outcome of every situation in my life.

I was hitting rock bottom

This was not how envisioned my life. All I did from dawn to dusk was work. I couldn't find contentment for some reason I was always tired and miserable.

Happy Birthday Brian

Our dear nephew Brian will be 44 years old tomorrow . It is a miracle that Brian is still here , with everything my sweetheart has been through. Brian requires 24/7 care . My sister Sandra and Charles are also amazing, Brian lives at home with constant care.

A divorce meant I was without a car

I found it hard to believe how my life had changed. In Rome I had a gorgeous Lancia Aurelia like a Maserati; now I had only a bike and the girl's Radio Flyer red wagon.

KISS=Kindness in Sweet Sensations

I am including more of my acronyms. One of my favorites is HAPPY = Having a Perfectly Pleasant Yippee !!!

HUG=Heavens Universal Greetings

I found great power in the word. I questioned why certain words were formed the way they were. I started forming my own acronyms. Here are some of them...

Jenny let a skunk run in the house !

Oh,my goodness, Jenny accidently let a skunk in the house and she did not know where it was?. This was a dilemma, because I was a woman who sold my wonderful player piano because a cockroach crawled into it! Now I had to deal with a real live skunk in the house !

John Kennedy's most treasured item

How wonderful to be experiencing a guided tour of the Kennedy Library in Waltham, Massachusetts. I was honored to share with my family the painting of the "Crucifixion" which the library housed. Upon seeing all the treasures in the special rooms, I asked the curator, "what was Kennedy's most treasured item.?

The greatest love letter I ever received

When this beautiful letter arrived ,I was so puzzled . Once again Ian professing his love for me and yet, his actions did not fit the words. I read the letter over and over to try to understand what was this man was really thinking!

Daddy was a self-taught genius

My father, Barney Sorkin never had a lesson yet,, at seventeen, the Savoy Hotel in London hired him to play saxophone in their orchestra . He went on to Hollywood becoming one of the most honored Maestros .

Magic in Morocco

My sister Sandra and I flew to Morocco on a last minute trip. To start on our journey our tour guide did not show up for 2 days and when Henry showed up he was drunk! What an adventure this was going to be. ..

I knew Alan was gay

In a way it was a relief to know that Alan would not want to chase other women but what I didn't realize is that he wanted to control my life.

They got "Bugsy"

Uncle Moe and Uncle Jack were the families connection to Hollywood and syndicated crimes. My sister Sandra and I were in Uncle Jack's car when he rolled down the window and Uncle Moe leaned in and said "they got Bugsy" !!!

Never,ever give up !!!

The thought of giving up was not part of my DNA. I couldn't do it. My mother at seventeen and a half came down with ,spinal meningitis and there were no anti-biotic then. They told my grandparents, "She would not make the night". Well, bless her she survived and I am here as her example of "never giving up.!!!

I couldn't stop hemorrhaging

What a traumatic experience and the only thing I focused on was my faith. I had survived and electrocution and nearly drowned in a lake and now this! Under these circumstances I know my faith is unshakable.

Let me share about the Hollywood I knew

Today, I do not recognize the city I grew up in.. Gone are the horse paths along Rodeo Drive and the rows of orange trees especially fragrant in the valley. The Beverly Wilshire still stands and is beautiful.. It was where "Pretty Woman" was filmed.

The was a shadow around the baby's heart

When your beautiful daughter is pregnant with her first child and our first grandchild ,to hear that the baby has a problem is not welcome news. It was her "inner light", I said it and believed it. This is how one heals.

The monster tormented me for 4 years

Even now as a grown woman, I cringe when I recall the event that changed my life. Being locked in a room and having to experience a sex act with two adults . He pulled up a chair right by the bed, proceeded having sex while the monster talked to me. He would call me constantly and I would hang up . This went on for four years

I called my mother "Placenta"

My mother was quite a character. The only woman I know who put on a bathing suit and shower cap to defrost the freezer. Yes, she would answer to "Placenta" .

Why I never gave up!

I wrote this book because I have experienced great despair and magnificent healings. I am no different than anyone else, but my faith is unshakable. We are tested at various times in our lives, therefore when I found real solutions and comfort, I felt compelled to share it...

Would you stay with some man for 500 camels?

In the city of Fez , I was approached in the Medea by a man that offered me 500 camels to stay in Morocco...So whenever I have to, I remind Ian of what I gave up for Him !!! Tempting as it was , now where would I put 500 camels???

From the best kiss in my life to take a monumental

Here I was in a room with a realize I barely know him. I felt it wasn't a risk it was destiny and I wanted to experience it with all my heart...

Addictions are killers...

I cannot take a taste of real sugar. Not one little bit. Too often I tried to test myself only to fail. It was a life lesson for me. I did not taste my wedding cake, what could be sweeter than that?. An alcoholic cannot take one sip, a smoker cannot take one puff. I know only to well it is a mind trigger that plays tricks on you...It has been over 40years without real sugar...I did it 1440 minutes at a time...

I am an ordinary woman with extraordinary results

I need to share my story with those who are experiencing pain and disappointment. I have experienced miracles and demonstrations . Do not give up or give in because there is a power and energy eager to assist you on your journey. Let me tell you how it worked for me...

The greatest love letter I ever received

This letter was supposed to arrive before Ian came to California but, Ian arrived first. It was written with such thoughtful words but it was baffling to me...once again he was non-committal and I wasn't sure I wanted to subject myself to him once again.

I was experiencing genuine love-making.

Being in love with Ian was far more beautiful and electrifying than anything I had ever fantasized about. I was so excited to prepare for my trip to Michigan ! I couldn't believe this was all happening to me. Literally a dream coming true !

I wanted to get married again

I had two failed marriages and I still wanted to experience a loving, gentle and reciprocal marriage . How would I go about it? I had to have a new design for living, so I set about creating a blueprint for happiness. On the path I discovered how to achieve it...

The best kiss of my life

Granted I have been kissed many times ...but when Ian kissed me in the hall of the hotel , it was magic. I was sleeping beauty awakened by a prince. Wow... terrific love story and true !!!

This month marks 41 years without real sugar

Little did I realize forty-one years ago, I would not have real sugar in my life. I did it one moment at a time. I share my story because I am no different than you...I loved sweets , deserts, ice cream and the thought of not having it was overwhelming. But as of today, it has been forty-one years sugar-free...I am free!!!

My words for healing

I found using the power of words brought about miraculous healing. I do not wear glasses today and I did for years . I never had eye correction , God's power and faith I feel are responsible. I look forward to sharing my amazing journey with you !

I couldn't afford to give up!

When I found myself in rough and hard times, the only thing I could count on was my faith. So often one prays and prays and nothing happens, you wake up to the same dilemma . I began to find a greater way to heal.

I am what I speak

What a joy to find a way to live my life with out the crazy drama that I had been through. It is such a blessing to know that I am "Divinely , Guided, Guarded and protected . I share my story knowing that you can demonstrate whatever you want.

Yes, I met Roy Rogers and Trigger

Life was so make believe them. I would go to the studios as a little girl and watch magic appear from nowhere . The movies still do that ...you can disappear into someone else's life temporarily...

My miracle card

I dutifully wrote on my miracle card, "I desired an Image". I then proceeded to write on a paper all the wonderful attributes I was searching for in a mate. I wrote and wrote and then I went back and read it and realized, I did not know anyone at the time who fit many of the qualifications. Nobody , not one.

I was engaged for 12 hours

I was engaged for 12 hours and then Ian and I parted ways returning to our destinations and I didn't hear from him ! How could this be...he proposed and I accepted..

When your dark days get even darker

We often think, how bad can it get and it gets worse. That is when one has a choice to sink or swim. You do not realize how much inner strength and courage you possess until you have to. Finding a greater core within yourself is a dynamic example of faith.

Life in Hollywood night after night

With the Oscars show about ready to begin, it brings me back each year to the unbelievable experiences I had. Every night my father mingled with the Hollywood crowd. I was treated to seeing the shows in the afternoon during rehearsals. It was glamour, glitz and gaudy.

Lesson of healing I have learned

I have found that three principles are found in healing . Lesson one...is it for good? Lesson two...will it hurt anyone? And Lesson three ...are you taking something that doesn't belong to you? A Divine Accident has been an example of great demonstrations.

Once a monster always a monster

I was constantly being taunted by the monster for over four years. He was not capable of being rehabilitated . I did not know where or to whom to confide in. It was my secret and it was destroying me.

A Beverly Hills Extravaganza Wedding to this ...

My first wedding in the Beverly Hills Hotel , Crystal Room was beyond spectacular. Too bad the marriage wasn't. My second husband and I eloped and our witnesses were the secretary of the church and the handyman.

I was a food junkie !!!

I couldn't stop...My eating was out of control. No matter how many meetings I went to, I was hooked. Food was my console. my friend , by compulsion. I had to find a way to quit the madness, it was going to do me in.

I called him

I called him "Uncle Moe", but the world called him one of the "major gambling figures in syndicated crimes" Gus Russo, Supermob. If my Uncle had known what the monster did to his niece in Chapter 8, he would have had him killed.

I was electrocuted at eight years old !

Having experienced electricity shooting through my small body was terrifying. I do believe it opened up channels in my head allowing me to be psychic and clairvoyant. To me there are no strangers, but it took me a while to realize the gift and the responsibility.

So Young and Naive

I was totally unaware that Alan was slowly manipulating me. He began to take control of my life, what I ate, what I wore , what I said. He called it "love" ,it was madness.

I Desire an Image

I had a plan , I would put it into action. I knew it required change ,attitude and perseverance. I was willing to do whatever it took to change my life. Wanting a better future for me and my children, meant great determination and effort.

Patience is not a virtue I possess

I always like things to happen right away. It has taken me years to adjust to events taking time. My faith has opened my awareness of the gifts we receive on the journey of enlightenment .

Bi-Polar was a foreign word to me

I would experience mood changes in Charles in a split second He would change into a beast throwing whatever was in his hand at me. Words like Prozac or Clonopin were not available , but living with someone whose behavior can change in moments is horrific.

All I had was faith, everything else failed me ...

My life had to change, I was miserable, stressed, tired and financially pathetic. I was all alone on this journey ...

I couldn't stop the hemorrhaging

In Chapter 13, I was presented with a dilemma , I was told to put my life in order due to an unexplainable mass. I had 18 month old twins and I wanted to be there to raise them. Prayer was the only thing I could count on...

A divorce meant no car !!!

After living in Rome, owning a gorgeous Lancia auto, attending the "Cannes Film Festival " being driven in gorgeous limousines. I found myself raising twin daughters without any transportation except a bike and the girls "Little Red Wagon"

Never, Never, Ever Give Up

I have had the honor of experiencing great courage and fortitude. The brave people mentioned in this chapter are amazing. My beautiful nephew Brian is one of them. He is now going on 44 years of age and has caretakers 24/7 but, has flown to Michigan . He is special and never, never ,ever gives up!!!

You are what you speak

Pay attention to what you say, I have learned there is great power in the words. I do not give energy to negative darkness. The body begins to heal instantly. It only knows to heal and will respond .

Please take me home and the monster locked the doo

Today, I keep hearing "Just say no". Well it didn't work for me...I was locked in a room with the monster and his playmate. He pulled up a chair right by the bed and said" this could be us".

Magical Moroccan Cane

My sister and I had the most memorable trip to Morocco. Our guide was drunk and didn't show up for 3 days. I was given a cane mysteriously from a Holy Man and it certainly was magical.

This was the incident that pushed me over the edge

When one of our twins walked in on Charles with his hands on my throat , I couldn't breath and I never wanted her to see that ever again. The incident caused Jenny to suffer panic attacks . Chapter 13

So young and innocent

I have great empathy for anyone who has endured a non-consensual incident . I kept silent for four years and tried to practically destroy my-self. I don't care how old you are today, you never forget. I wrote my memoir to share how I began to heal.

Shadow near her heart

When Lisa returned home from her from her ultra sound on their 3month embryo . There was a problem . She said, "there was a shadow near the heart." My first thought was it was her "Inner Light" . it presented a dilemma .

"Let them eat cake", but not me !

Like an alcoholic, I could not take one sip , one taste not one ! bite . I have learned not to test myself. It has been over 40 years without real sugar. You can do it . I know whatever struggle you are going through .

My Generino

I experienced the most humbling act of kindness when the portiere who cleaned the apartments in Rome, gave me a going away party. I had sketched her holding her son "Generino" and sent it to Associated American Artists. Maria and her hunchback husband took the beds out of their dining room where they slept and carried in a table for my going away party. Gratzi, Gratzi for memories.

Do not judge by appearances

I should have trusted my psychic ability and backed away from Charles. Little did I know behind the fragile façade was a very mixed up man. He accepted me as I was, which was delightful...and after we married, he became an abuser. Chapter 12 A Divine Accident

I survived the Storms

Finally I was able to realize that I had a mind and I could use it. How often we feel useless and misunderstood, but something inside kept telling me I could survive and God would guide and sustain me. My faith is unshakable and under the worst of times...being told at 34 to put my life in order; my only transportation was a bike and a wagon.

I am a child of God

How fortunate I was to be able to have a special meeting with the famous "Dr. Joseph Murphy" , who wrote "The Power of Your Unconscious Mind". We met, we talked and he told me just look into the mirror and proclaim that I was "a child of God". Those words were going to cure me. I went home so sad and disappointed , I gained two pounds every week after that.!!!

Roma , Via Roma

My journey in Rome was not as I expected. I was left to maneuver on my own , did not speak Italian at the time. Mama Mia it was not va bene !!!

Alan couldn't change the fact that he was bi-sexua

I accepted the challenge . I thought I could change him. How young and innocent I was , he loved a man's body and I wasn't a man.!!!!

Money and more money

My uncles were raised knowing that "connections counted and secrecy worked" I was always told nothing important for fear of disclosure. This worked very well later when I had my awful encounter with the monster!

Zonophone

How amazing to hear my father playing his saxophone with the rest of the band. I often thought they might have used this on the series "Downton Abbey " as it was recorded in 1927 , London. You can also hear it by going to Amazon and look for Barney Sorkin Let me know , thanks

Chapter 2

My Heritage, and growing up in California among the rich and famous.

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