Authorpreneur Dashboard – Ellen Korman Mains

Ellen Korman Mains

Buried Rivers

Biographies & Memoirs

In 2005, I was on a German train. It was a grey January day and outside the window, I saw a smokestack and chain link fences. Everything I saw reminded me of the Holocaust. I felt the energy of the Holocaust pressing down on me, and the feeling got stronger and stronger. My parents were Polish Jews and my mother survived the Holocaust in ghettos and concentration camps like Auschwitz in Poland and Ravensbruck in Germany. Still, I wondered why I was feeling this and what was going on? When I got home, I was sick and disoriented, and I knew something had happened to me on that train. I thought about the countless souls who had died in such a horrible way, that they no longer believed in basic goodness. From the age of 19, I’d practiced Buddhist meditation to understand my own suffering and its origins, and connect with that fundamental goodness. With so much suffering in the world, I wanted to apply that training. So I began journeying to Poland to learn about the world my parents had left behind, and to explore basic goodness in the light of the Holocaust, the largest collective trauma we’ve known, and in the light of how that trauma was still in me. Buried Rivers is about the invisible bonds between the living and the dead. It's about the bonds of family, but also the bonds between strangers. It’s about not losing faith in each other or in ourselves.

Book Bubbles from Buried Rivers

Zen Peacemaking at Auschwitz

I chose this excerpt about the Bearing Witness Retreat I attended in 2011 from my new memoir because tomorrow, Nov. 9th, is the 80th anniversary of "Kristallnacht," considered by many people to be the beginning of the Holocaust. Also because Roshi Bernie Glassman passed away this past Sunday just as the 2018 Bearing Witness Retreat was about to begin. Though hate crimes have not ended, his contribution continues to be enormous. We will miss him and remember him. The kindle version of "Buried Rivers" is half-price for a couple more days in honor of this date.

Meeting my grandfather in the Jewish Cemetery of Ł

August 3, 2018 - Having arrived in Warsaw for the 38th International Jewish Genealogy Conference after spending some time in my favorite city of Łódź, I wanted to share a special moment of connection with an ancestor that took place six years ago, in August 2012, during the annual commemoration of the liquidation of the Łódź ghetto. This was a pinnacle moment, near the end of the book.

Tribute to Bill

The idea of traveling to Poland had never crossed my mind before. It came up only through talking to my extraordinary and recently departed friend, Bill Scheffel, in September 2005. I owe him a profound gift of gratitude and dedicate this book to him. - Lodz, Poland.

Space and the hairy heart

Does it seem odd to attribute hair-like tentacles to the heart? Somehow, that was the image or felt sense that arose when I wrote this, almost 9 years ago. It was a good feeling, although a vulnerable one. To feel my heart in this visceral way is something I still aspire to and appreciate when it happens!

Language Challenges in a Foreign Country

In this first book bubble, I share some struggles I went through in 2009 when I spent six months in Łódź, Poland, attending four hours of Polish language classes five days a week, with students mostly young enough to be my kids. I was the only American and the nickname of the school was “Babel.” It was amazing, but also frustrating at times!

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